The Drive Of Life

Whitney Houston - Greatest Love Of All

2012-02-12T14:43:00.000+08:00

"Greatest Love Of All"

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone to fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

[Chorus:]
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

[Chorus]

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

Outings!

2012-02-08T19:27:00.003+08:00

Monday was Chap Goh Mei!!!! And my home is added a new member! Her name was NoNo.

I was so scared of dogs since I'm kid. But this time after the case, I planned to adopt a dog to take care of the house and also to train up myself not to scare dogs anymore.

So on Monday, I've started my first step to touch her and play with her.

She was so cute and when she moody, I felt moody and upset too. I can't believe that I fall in love with her. Love her so much although she is just a normal breed but not those toy dogs.

Emo's NoNo

At night after dinner in granny's house, I hang out with my girls at OverTime. This outing is to complete my mission that is ended my CNY with my very last glass of alcoholic drinks.

The girls! :)

Myself with the last glass of beer! No more beers or liquors for me anymore! This is my new resolution! :)

Tuesday, I had a gathering with my six form's friends. We had breakfast and continue with bowling and starbuck's sessions! It was awesome because we chatted a lot. Long time we didn't have such gathering.

Here are the girls! :)

That's end my 4 days holiday and it's time to back to work again! argghhh...so saddddd!!!

There will be no more holidays for those who are working until May!!! :(

With Love,

Ning Shing

The Week :)

2012-02-05T20:28:00.006+08:00

The week of mine ....Full with unexpected thing and met-up with my dearest besties!

Monday morning I've received call from my dad and said that our house was entered by thieves. Damn! I want to curse them forever! Ishhh....

Bad thing gone and so good things will come! Small amount doesn't out, big money doesn't come. Luckily the stupid idiot didn't hurt my dad.

Then, I had a dated with my sweetheart, Annie!

At first, we planned to go a shopping sales one. But who knows, we both ended up with disappointment because those clothes not suitable for us. :( So nevermind, we went for dinner in a korean restaurant in Amcorp Mall.

Smile..... Annie! <3

It's gambling time of 2 persons! :) I know it's so wu liao! But we loved it!

The another leg came! Vannx!!! Now we were 3 persons' gambling time! :)

Then on Saturday after work, I had lunch with a sapoh! Long time didn't meet her as Annie always said she is my best friend... So I asked her out for lunch! :)

Mirror US! <3

The foods and US! :)

On Sunday morning, I dated my long old best friend, honey Nee to watch a movie and lunch!

The Underworld: Awakening & Secret Recipe :)

And here she was! Honey Nee! <3

That's end my week! Love all the meet ups and hope to more with you guys! Love you guys! Muacksssssss <3

With loves,

Ning Shing

心痛

2012-01-29T15:11:00.003+08:00

我走了，也许我们在一起是错的。。。

让我觉得自己太笨了！

一开始就不应该爱上你。。。

因为。。。你的心，永远容不下我！

一直以来，都觉得是我的问题。。。。

让我觉得很内疚，一直责怪自己。。。

不过原来，一切都是你的问题。。。

谢谢你的残忍，让我学会了坚强！

Love that I want....

2012-01-28T19:04:00.002+08:00

I wish.....

To have a peacefully life with my love one beside the beach.

Sit along the beach from day to night.

Watch the sunrise and sunset...

Lye on the beach and look onto the sky...

See the moon and the stars....

Hold the hand until the end of our life...

That's the love I want in my life.

It's Dragon Year!

2012-01-28T17:04:00.008+08:00

This year Chinese New Year, we whole family had joint my dad's friend and families went for a trip to the north. Here are the pictures that can tell the story.

Daddy and us! <3

The group picture!

Reunion Dinner of The Dragon Year!

2012-01-22T14:50:00.002+08:00

This year is different from previous years that we had our reunion dinner for CNY at my house.

This is suggested by my besties and of course, I'd agreed too! It's special and fun!

I'm lazy to type since yesterday I slept at 5.30am and woke up at 9am.

Let's the pictures do the talking because a picture worth thousand words!

My loves always and forever!

Friendship Forever!

Happy Chinese New Year to all my family, friends and everyone who is reading my blog!

Have a great one ahead!

With love,

Ning Shing

Fulfilled Day

2012-01-18T09:05:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a really tired day!

Monday after work, went to sing k with my colleague until 8.30pm. Then followed by shopping at One Utama until 10pm. After that, I slept over at her house and drank some sparkling juice.
Then the next morning, I woke up at 6am because have to go outstation at Pahang.
What a damn trip! Took 2 hours to reach Bentong and had breakfast there. After that departed to Padang Tengku just to see see walk walk. Then it's lunch time.
After lunch time, back to KL again. At first thought can straight back to home but my boss kept change his mind and said want to back office. OMFG! I damn sleepy and tired because along the way, I can't sleep. Once I wanted to fall asleep, my boss talked with me again. T.T
Ok nevermind. After finish worked, we headed off to have our reunion dinner among colleagues near my aunt's house. This is the first time all of us having this kind of gathering although we gathered everyday in the office. But the feelings are different from office. We chatted, we gossiped, we shared, we ate and we drank! :)We cheered for ourselves! :)

Then reached home around 10pm! It was a fulfilled day of mine.
And this morning made me don't want to wake up because I felt dizzy. But have to come for work also. T.T
Today is the another two stupid colleagues's farewell party. I so don't wish to attend but as my colleague said, we just eat ourselve and no need to bother them and yes, I'm going to be like this later! XD

Besides, I got a dream this morning. I've dream about you. I was upset inside the dream. But I know it will not happen in reality. And thanks that you appeared in my dream. :)

Moving On....

2012-01-16T15:02:00.005+08:00

Recently, I felt myself immune and getting better from the hurt.
Frankly speaking, there is always has a space for you in my heart. No matter what you've said to me and I know that we are impossible. But I just put you inside there forever.
I don't know whether what is my image in your heart now. Maybe bad? Or maybe even worse than bad? I just hope that this will not affecting our pure friendship.
But thanks for all the decisions you've made. Maybe it's a right decision for you and me.
You need friends and friends will make you more happier and so do I.
So, yesterday I went out with my besties, Annie. We did something that we never do before. I feel great after that.

I feel blessed to have her because she is the one will never ask me for what happen but she will accompanying me to do anything. Thank you so much sweetheart! <3My life is moving on and on now! And I'll try my best to make my life better and to the best!

自己

2012-01-13T12:41:00.002+08:00

有時候，莫名的心情不好，
不想和任何人說話，只想一個人靜靜的發呆。
有時候，突然覺得心情煩躁，看什麼都覺得不舒服，
心裏悶的發慌，拼命想尋找一個出口。

有時候，發現身邊的人都不瞭解自己，
面對著身邊的人，突然覺得說不出話。

有時候，感覺自己與世界格格不入，
曾經一直堅持的東西一夜間面目全非。

有時候，突然很想逃離現在的生活，
想不顧一切收拾自己簡單的行李去流浪。

有時候，別人突然對你說，
我覺得你變了，然後自己開始百感交集。

有時候，希望時間為自己停下，
做完己還沒來得及做的事情。

有時候，想一個人躲起來脆弱，
不願別人看到自己的傷口。

有時候，突然很想哭，卻難過的 ………
哭不出來。

有時候，夜深人靜，突然覺得不是睡不著，
而是固執地不想睡。

有時候，走過熟悉的街角，
看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一個人的臉。

有時候，明明自己心裏有很多話要說，卻不知道怎樣表達。
有時候，覺得自己擁有著整個世界，
一瞬間卻又覺得自己其實一無所有。

真的只是有時候，明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單。
有時候，很想放縱自己，

希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里的發一次瘋。
有時候，突然找不到自己，把自己丟的無影無蹤。
有時候，心裏突然冒出一種厭倦的情緒，覺得自己很累很累。
有時候，看不到自己未來的樣子，迷茫的不知所措。
有時候，發現自己一夜之間長大了。
有時候，聽到一首歌，就會突然想起一個人。
有時候，希望能找個人好好疼愛自己，渴望一種安全感。
可當那個可以疼你的人出現的時候，你卻偏執地退隱。
有時候，別人誤解了自己有口無心的一句話，

心裏鬱悶的發慌。
有時候，被別人傷害，嘴上講沒事，其實心裏難過的要死。
有時候，常常在回憶裏掙扎，有很多過去無法釋懷。
有時候，很容易感動別人的關懷，

有時候卻麻木的像個笨蛋。
有時候，看著時間一點點流逝，

任憑歎息，自己卻無能為力。

其實，有時候，真的會想這麼多。　　
跟朋友裝沉默，跟陌生人講心裏話。
對於在乎你的，不想讓他們擔心，
有時候，沒有消息就是一種好消息。
其實，很想說“我很好”，或許是昧著心說謊，
也只是想把最燦爛的一面，

放在每個人對自己印象的首頁。
丟了自己，要記得撿回來。

双子爱

2012-01-13T10:25:00.000+08:00

如果让曾经爱过你的双子
在你选择离开后
你说不想跟他再有任何关系后
他自愿从此消失在你的世界
证明了他是真的很爱你
非常在乎你的一切

因为双子明白爱情永远都不能勉强
一段感情是双方面的
所以他会尊重你的一切选择
双子不懂得去恨一个人
就算受了多大的伤害
他还是会爱着你
只是他会将爱收在心里
换个方式传达给你
消失就是他选择的方式

双子也不懂得后悔
因为他不在意?
很多选择?
其实他对你的一切都会在意得要命
特别是感情方面
双子异性缘好是无可否认
但就算身边有多少异性朋友
双子还是会分得很清楚
他爱的到底是谁
分开时
双子会尝试一切所有的方法挽回
就像孩子般
就算你提出什么理由拒绝
他都会很坚持不放弃
就算给拒绝多少次
明知道结果还是不变
他还是会不停尝试
因为双子不想给自己日后有任何后悔的理由
可是
你知道吗?
为什么双子会突然放弃挽回?
如果你对在尝试挽回你的他说:
"我们现在起别再联络,否则彼此都很难放下,我会很辛苦
"
"我现在想过全新的生活,我想我会比起现在快乐"
你会发现到
每天打扰你
想挽回你的他
在第二天永远消失在你的世界

双子的爱其实真的很简单
他只想把幸福快乐带给最自己在乎的那位
就算心里有多少百万个不愿意
不愿意从此失去你的消息
不愿意从此见不到你的笑
不愿意从此不能关心着你
不愿意从此不能陪伴着你
不愿意从此不能听见你笑
...
多少的不情愿不舍得都只能埋藏在心中

但是
当他知道如果消失在你的世界
能让你过得快乐
能让你尽快忘记他
能让你过你梦想的生活
能让你不再为他流下眼泪
...

那一刻
他明白
如果选择背弃自己的爱
能换取你要的快乐
能让你不再痛苦
他会走
不会再出现
心里怎么放不下你
他都不会再去打扰
只会从各种管道默默注意你
当他发现你真的快乐了
笑容多了
在远方的他也会为你微笑着
他心里会为了你的笑开心
因为双子的爱是成全和牺牲
他想要的很简单
只需要你的一个微笑
就足够他开心一整天了

双子在爱情方面很可爱
他所想要的都很简单
像小孩般容易满足
他真的爱上你那时
恭喜你
你是最幸福的
他会为了你的笑容
做任何傻事去换取它
自己受伤了
也会傻傻看着你笑
他只想你快乐幸福

曾经爱过你的双子
在离开你的世界后
在大众面前还是那么开朗调皮
但是
他的心是寂寞的
思念的心会让他
夜夜折腾
孤独的回忆起曾经的你们
触摸着你送他的小物品
反复阅读着你的书信
然后傻傻的微笑
继而哭泣
不让任何人触碰他的回忆

他会这样告诉自己
只要你现在过得很好
一切都值得的
没什么好遗憾
没什么好后悔

只是双子的心真的碎了
他的爱给了你就从不期望收回
就算以后遇过多少人
他都明白只有你才能永远住在他心里最深处
只有你才能让他放弃他自己的心
换取你所要的幸福
陪伴他的只有回忆
和永远都不舍得丢弃的
你送他的物品,书信...

A Bad Day

2012-01-11T20:09:00.002+08:00

Today was really my bad bad day!

本来已经伤心到要死了。。。

But, my luck doesn't seem with me now.

When I finished bath, I just found out the doors are locked.

I can't get out and I knocked, I shouted...But nobody can hear me since all of my cousins were in the living room.

That time I felt myself so lost and so wanted to cry....

But, I have no tears. I can't cry out.

Although my heart was so pain so helpless....but yet I can't cry.

I'm so scared of myself. Why am I so tough until I wanted to cry, but my tears do not fall down?

Am I hurt so much until the tears are drying out? Or I am big girl now and so can't cry easily?

I'm just don't like myself now. I rather be a cry girl than a tough or should say cruel girl.

The Answer

2012-01-11T18:11:00.004+08:00

I think I got the answer already although it is not telling by your own.

By the way, I wish you all the best in your future and good luck!

I will putting down all of these too. And also it's time to let go of you.

Keep underneath my heart. As a memory given by you.

Thank you so much for whatever you've done to me.

Goodbye!

Idiots in my day!

2012-01-10T20:39:00.004+08:00

Today among our colleagues have the reunion lunch before CNY since both bosses are not around.

At first thought this lunch would be nice one but who knows the stupid idiot talked something bullshit ended up my lunch with angers!

Who you think you are? You thought you are senior then very big? All also must respect you?

What the hell are your theory that if you cannot eat so much meaning that you don't have future in office?

Bullshit!

But as I know you can eat a lot but why you still don't have future and need to resign?

Can you please shut up for the another two more weeks since you going to leave?

Don't let me hate you more and more within this two weeks.

Can you please look at yourself before saying others!

You are not that perfect until can judge people!

You are nothing for me and you actually in my mind just a rubbish!

I hope that we will not meet again in the future! And please bring together both of your friends go! Once they are in the office, I think I'm going to suffer!

My god! When my three years bond going to end? Can the time pass faster?

But luckily, my mood changed to better after I went to shopping again! My god...I think I'm going to become a shopaholic soon because once I'm unhappy or angry, I need to shop to cheer me up! WTH!!! How can I do saving if continue being like this? No way! In order to do saving, then I have to learn to not upset or angry anymore. And please God, please be good to me. Bring away all my sadness and angers and ask them don't come near me! Thank YOU very much.

My day ended up with a pair of new sport shoe! I love it! :)

xoxo

酒窝

2012-01-09T10:03:00.006+08:00

转贴之前的故事：你脸上有酒窝吗？你知道酒窝是怎么来的吗？

传说酒窝的来历是这样的：
相传人死后，过了鬼门关便上了黄泉路，路上盛开着只见花,不见叶...的彼岸花。
花叶生生两不见,相念相惜永相失,路尽头有一条河叫忘川河，河上有一座奈何桥。
有个叫孟婆的女人守候在那里，给每个经过的路人递上一碗孟婆汤，凡是喝过孟婆汤的人就会忘却今生今世所有的牵绊，了无牵挂地进入六道，或为仙，或为人，或为畜。
孟婆汤又称忘情水，一喝便忘前世今生。
一生爱恨情仇，一世浮沉得失，都随这碗孟婆汤遗忘得干干净净。
今生牵挂之人，今生痛恨之人，来生都相见不识。
可是有那么一部分人因为种种原因，不愿意喝下孟婆汤，孟婆没办法只好答应他们。
但在这些人身上做了记号，这个记号就是在脸上留下了酒窝。
这样的人，必须跳入忘川河，受水淹火炙的磨折等上千年才能轮回，转世之后会带着前世的记忆、带着那个酒窝寻找前世的恋人。
所以朋友们请珍惜身边脸上有酒窝的那个人，
无论是亲人、朋友，因为他（她）也许是你前世的恋人，经过千年等待来寻找前世情缘未了的人，去完成前世未了的心愿，请永远不要去伤害他（她），因为不是谁都有勇气跳入忘川河，等上千年煎熬之苦。（原来我是那么勇敢的。。。为了寻找前世恋人而跳入忘川河，哈哈哈哈）

盼：
来生，再续前缘…
愿：
来生，还能再见…

上一世，我们没能相爱
这一世，我们相爱的太短
那，我们下一世见吧，继续的相爱。。。

祝福您们永远幸福快乐 ~ ^^

问

2012-01-07T13:59:00.005+08:00

谁让你心动

谁让你心痛
谁会让你偶尔想要拥她在怀中
谁又在乎你的梦
谁说你的心事她会懂
谁为你感动

如果女人总是等到夜深
无悔付出青春她就会对你真
是否女人永远不要多问
她最好永远天真为她所爱的人

谁让你心动

谁让你心痛
谁会让你偶尔想要拥她在怀中
谁又在乎你的梦
谁说你的心事她会懂
谁为你感动

只是女人容易一往情深
总是为情所困终于越陷越深
可是女人爱是她的灵魂
她可以奉献一生为她所爱的人

如果女人总是等到夜深
无悔付出青春她就会对你真
只是女人容易一往情深
总是为情所困终于越陷越深
可是女人爱是她的灵魂
她可以奉献一生为她所爱的人

Take Care

2012-01-06T14:19:00.002+08:00

I've read your blog yesterday and found out that actually you got so much problems.
I'm so sorry that I couldn't help you.
But I just hope that you can over come it and be happy.
Everything can be settle one. Just trust yourself and be yourself.
This is what I want to see.
I don't want to see you stress, tired or sick of all these anymore.
Please, promise me, must be happy always no matter what happen.
Just be like you before you've met me.
And most importantly, must take care of yourself. Don't always fall sick and don't always late sleep.
Once you be happy, all your sickness will get away from you.
Take care my dear. And good luck!

Don't Judge ME!

2012-01-05T17:13:00.002+08:00

I really hope to say this to my colleagues in my office!

You all don't know anything about me, so don't try to judge me or try to order me to change my learning way just to follow yours!

You got your own ways and I have mine too! Really feel want to punch or slap you all since now is my bad mood period!

Sometimes, I just want to take a long leave to go for a vacation or straight away resign.

But I know I couldn't do so because I am under contract and no matter how, I still have to work for three years.

I really hope to go to travel on my own.

Alone, no companions, nobody know where am I at, no one can find me, and no one is know me in that place.

I just need a peaceful and restful times. No complaints, no judging, no anger, no sadness, no bad mood and no unsatisfied.

But....it is impossible because my dad will not approve me to go travel alone. So, this is just a dream. A dream that I only can achieve when I am 30 years old I guessed.

对不起

2012-01-04T14:12:00.002+08:00

为什么这次的我，会伤的那么严重？
明明就是很短暂，很瞬间的一段感情。。
可是，我却那么的伤心。
或许，我真的放了很深的感情进去，可能连我自己也不知道
这是唯一的一段感情可以让我那么短时间却爱的那么深的
其实，这段情，以前已经存在着。。。
只不过是我自己没察觉，没有珍惜
如果当时我知道你真的喜欢我，我一定会告诉你我的感觉。。。
我也不会让你为了我而哭泣。。。
我知道我有很多很多事情都不知道，就是因为那些不知道，所以才会发生现在的事
10年前，我都以为你只是在玩玩而已。。。
因为在小学的时候，我听说了一些事情，觉得你只不过是喜欢另一个人而不是我
所以我才不放在心上。。。
然而，因为这样，我做了错误的决定，永远也禰补不了对你造成的伤害
那就是接受一个我不爱的人。。。
现在想回来，真的是年少无知啊。。
我只能告诉你，那一段你在介意的感情，对我而言，只不过是一段小孩子在玩家家酒的游戏。
我对他，可说是一段很可笑的故事。
我不知道，也想不起，到底以前我对他说了什么令到你觉得害怕。。。
不过我可以告诉你，我真的没喜欢过他，也很想让你相信现在的我。。。
或许你会觉得我是一个玩弄感情的人。。
我也可以很诚实的告诉你，以前的我，确实是。。。是一个很幼稚的人
不过，人是会长大的，会成熟的。。
现在的我。。。不会再随便的喜欢上人
因为曾经被伤害过了，痛了，哭了。。也就清醒了
所以，现在的我，是一个对感情认真地人。。。
爱上了，就会全心全意地对他好，不会伤害他。。。
其实，我有很多很多的话想和你说清楚。。。
不过，你连让我解释的机会也不给。。。
我想，如果让我的好朋友知道这一切，他们一定会骂我傻，骂我笨
所以我不想告诉他们，不想让他们为我担心
只不过，我很辛苦。。。
要哭也哭不出。。。
很想抛开一切，把自己锁起来，什么人都不见
让自己反省一下。。。
原来以前所做过的事，还是会有人记得的
还是会对你造成伤害的。。。
我只能对你说。。。对不起！
我也不会再奢望什么了。。。
因为，我不配！
我不知道你还会不会来看我的部落格，如果你在看着，请你用心的感受我在这对你说的一切。。。因为都是我的心底话。
谢谢你在这段期间为我做的一切，虽然很短暂，不过，我却很开心因为至少我拥有过，而且会刻骨铭心的。。。

接受，改变，离开

2012-01-03T22:35:00.002+08:00

有三个方法可以解决所有问题

接受，改变，离开。

不能接受，那就改变，不能改变，那就离开。

说得很对！我必须实行这concept!

The same day. The same feeling

2012-01-03T09:48:00.002+08:00

Omg! I totally lose.
My tears were out just now. Just a little tears.
Why am I so weak in handling all these problems?
I've told myself that for this time, I can't have a little tear no matter what happen. But...
Why? Is it also because of today is the day you never talked with me anymore?
And also the day you started not with me anymore?
Why is it on the same day as last year? Why my heart felt so pain on the same day but is one year after?
I don't like this feeling. I must be strong no matter what is happening and what is the answer.
I think I shouldn't continue being like this if there is no answer for me.

T.T

2012-01-02T13:18:00.004+08:00

I think this year is really not my year although just pass few days.

These few days actually got some bad thought on my mind about something.

I thought it was just maybe I am thinking too much but today, I finally knew that it was not I'm thinking too much but yet, it really happened.

I was really upset because I never think that it will happen so fast.

"Everyone have their past. But some past might caused hurt to someone in future, But no matter what, past is past. Now and future is more important. Please believe how am I now"

I'm so sorry because I knew that I was hurting you. But really, please believe what I feel now. This feeling is never fake and always true. I know you need some times, and I will respect you.

一年前的今天

2012-01-01T03:00:00.002+08:00

一年前的今天，我是最后一次听见您的声音，最后一次和您睡在一起。。。

就是去年的今天，您送进了医院

清醒了一天后，您就继续地昏迷了16天

那16天里，我们每天都跟您说话

希望您能听见我们，勇敢的睁大眼睛，和我们谈天

鼓励您，给您打气

每天都希望着奇迹能出现在您的身上

可惜。。。

那么快的，一年过去了

这一年里，确实发生了很多事

有起有落，有喜也有忧

不过对我最大的打击是您的离去

没留一句话，一个笑

什么都没有

我真的很后悔当时没陪在您的身边

让您在离开的路上那么寂寞

对不起，妈

我爱您！♥

New Year's Resolutions

2011-12-31T18:14:00.002+08:00

New year is going to step on very soon. Just in 6 more hours time.

From small until now, I didn't really set a resolution for myself throughout the year. But I hope to make some changes in the coming year 2012.

I want to set up a resolution plan for myself to achieve in the year 2012.

Hmmm....so let's see what is my resolution 2012:

Learn up as much as things in my career. Don't keep wait for the senior to ask me to do.
Decrease my weight to the limit I've set since this morning I weighed, omg, I'm over limit!
No shopping anymore in the first half year of 2012. (because I spent a lots in buying unnecessary things.:( )
Must restart my exercise again! Twice a week if didn't go for outstation.
Must do savings.
Must learn to do some investment.
Must learn to love and care everyone in my life.
If found my true love, must appreciate him. Not to repeat my mistakes again.
Learn to control my emotions, my tempered. Do not easily get angry.
Must do some charity works and keep update with my sponsored kid!

I think 10 resolutions will be best for me. Hopefully that I can achieve all of these throughout the year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 to all my beloved family, friends and you. I love you all so much! ♥

Christmas Eve

2011-12-24T09:26:00.003+08:00

It's Christmas Eve!

Nothing much happened during this week because all of us were on the holiday mood.

I felt myself very great because I was driving alone back from PJ to Seremban. This is my first time to drive alone and so long distance. But I felt good because I no longer need to depend on people to fetch me back hometown in future. Yippie! Does it count as a good job I've done before the end of year 2011?

Hmmm..whatelse? Oh ya...went to celebrate Christmas eve eve eve with my colleague and then went for a movie, "New Year's Eve". It was not bad, quite meaningful movie. And funny too.

Other than that, Thursday went to shopping with the colleague again and can't bought anything because all not suit me. So sad...nevermind, still got lots of shopping centers and boutiques waiting for me. :)

Today is Christmas Eve, hope my family and my friends have a great great celebration tonight and Merry Christmas! Love you all! <3

Mixture of Moods

2011-12-13T20:05:00.004+08:00

Today got a mixture of moods.

At first was sleepy and boring because need to attend a stupid course whole day which actually only need 2 hours to complete. Wasted my time.

In the meantime, my colleague sent a message to another colleague who attended the course with me telling him that our company had declare 24th and 31st December as holiday and the suppose holiday on Monday is cancelled. I was WTH when I heard this news and moody since that.

Okay, that's nevermind since this is company's decision. I can't do anything also. Just can accept it.

After the course, I was happy because I went to One Utama to shop for Christmas's presents. When I saw all those Christmas's decorations, gifts, Santa Clause, etc....I was so excited. The feeling of holiday is getting nearer! I shopped for 1 hour plus in order to get those presents.

During shopping, I'd received a call from my colleague and she told me that yes, 24th and 31st December have declare as holiday but..... the following Monday also holiday! Waoooo....I was so so so happy! Meaning that I have three days holiday for both of this date! Thank you so much my company! :)

I think I have to plan my holiday now! Any suggestion, friends?

After I reached home, I got call from my father. He told me that there is a letter from PTPTN for me. I was like WHAT? I have no relation with PTPTN but why they sent me a letter? The letter content is saying that I owe them RM 21k. What the hell! I cancelled it once I got my scholarship and I didn't take any cents from you bitch! Government really stupid. I guess because of this, I need to run here run there to settle it since you all know that what is the attitude our government's workers have! Damn it!

In additional, I would like to wish you GOOD LUCK in your final examination! All the best and do your best! God will bless you. <3

The day with my three little darlings!

2011-12-11T21:49:00.002+08:00

The day with my three darlings!

It's been long time since we four went out together.

My day was brighten by them. I love outings with you girls.

We knew each other for almost 10 years. It is not a short period. Although sometimes we had misunderstanding, but we've overcome it. And now, we still are best friends.

Everytime when I was upset, you all will by my side and support me especially my lovely Mei Yen. I love you so much. <3

Hope that our friendship will last forever and endless! And we must plan to have more and more outings in future!

xoxo

The Eclipse

2011-12-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

Today hot news! Full moon eclipse is on the sky!

Newspapers, Facebook, everyone, everywhere is talking about the eclipse.

Here are the both pictures of normal full moon and the eclipse.

The normal full moon

The eclipse <3

My New Hair Style!

2011-12-09T17:43:00.004+08:00

Yesterday my mood was really terrible! I almost wanted to cry in office!

But I controlled it because I don't want people thought that I'm weak!

But, something had lighten up my night - New Hair Style!

I've booked to do something on my hair one month ago and yesterday was the day!

I reached the saloon at 5.30pm and the stylist started to 'renovate' my hair around 6pm.

So guessed what? I used 4 and a half hours to complete my hair renovation!

My god! I was so hungry and sleepy!

But luckily, the result was satisfied and I think it is worth for me to get hungry and gastric. :)...p/s:(those who care for me please don't scold me because of gastric...LOL)

I scared of the curl hair doesn't suit for me and all the reasons for me to postpone until yesterday. Yea yea!!! I finally stepped out the first step for curled and dyed my hair! It's really needed a lots of courage for me to do it!

So people, if you want to do something, just go for it! You will never know the result if you never try! Once you've try, you know the result, and you will not regrets! This is applicable to all of you! In life, work, love and everything.

What I can say now is I LOVE MY NEW HAIR STYLE WITH NO REGRETS! :)

The most difficult part! My neck was so tired!

The product! ♥

Damn!

2011-12-07T19:16:00.003+08:00

Don't know why today my mood was not very good!

Early in the morning already felt tired and mood was bad!

So, when the senior taught me about work, I also didn't talk much but just listened.

That's fine because at least I still haven't explode!

But after lunch, I went to check out for something and I found out got some problem. So I went to tell him the problem but he just bla this bla that.

Ok! It's fine. I tried again for second time by myself. But at the end, still cannot be solved. Alright! I told him about that and he said the same thing again and he expected that I know how to solve myself which I didn't experience before. Damn him! If I know how to solve it, I will not go to ask for your help, ok? And that time, I'd exploded! I speaked loudly with him although I knew that this is not respect him. But who care! Does he worth me to respect?

But nevermind, I will solve it myself tomorrow! I will not ask you for the third time! F**K!

爱。。。一直都在......Love....is always there

2011-12-06T21:57:00.002+08:00

I just watched a video made by an insurans company. The story is about a father is going to die while his daughter is still a child. He wants to play seek and hide with her. He said he will hide longer for this time. So in the meantime, she has to help her father to take care the mother. The rule of this seek and hide is she only can ask her mother about where her father hide after 10 years!

It made me think about my lovely mom.

爱。。。一直都在......Love....is always there.

I suddenly so miss you, mom!

Just now told about you with my colleague, I felt like I'm going to cry but I control myself. I can't cry anymore because I'd promise I want to be strong and tough. So I will not let myself being so weak. I will not make you feel disappointed!

I so miss you........

遇见

2011-12-05T11:11:00.003+08:00

‘要在对的时间遇见对的人，不要差一点错过了对的人。‘

我非常的认同和赞同这句话。。。
有些人，在错的时间遇见对的人
有些人，在对的时间遇见错的人
有些人，在错的时间遇见错的人
当然，也有些人，在对的时间遇见对的人。

我呢，希望我不会再错过那个在对的时间遇到对的人了！
我一定会好好地珍惜那个对的人。。。
因为，我不要也不想辜负和伤害那个对的人。♥

我也希望我身边的朋友能够在对的时间，遇见他们对的人，永远幸福快乐！

xoxo

2011-11-29T10:21:00.000+08:00

The night to be remember!

xoxo

I'm Sorry

2011-11-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

I felt myself very bad and felt sorry to my dearest.

My heart was hurt when I knew that you were in hurt.

I'm so sorry my dear, I didn't mean to hurt you.

You know that I always appreciate the friendship we built in the short period!

I know that I should by your side when you were so need me! But...I'm a bad friend ever! Because I didn't by your side when the time you needed me. I'm sorry dear.

I hope that our friendship will not be change by this because I do really appreciate you!

I'll never let this thing happen again in future, I promise!

And I hope that you will recovering soon. I'll always pray for you and love you!

Take care my dear and hope to see you soon! <3

Chances

2011-11-22T09:04:00.004+08:00

"Everything has no turning point after it happened"

I very agreed with this statement. Once it happened, you can't turn it back because it might caused hurt in physical or mental.
Although you're trying to fix it back, but it is useless. There will always have a scar that you cannot recover forever.
I guessed the fixing period is important too. When people is giving you the chance, but you missed it, then it's too late when the time you want back the chance.
We must really appreciate what we are having now and don't miss out any chances that people giving you. Not everyone will giving you the second chance again once you miss it!
And then, everything is change and different!
That's why I appreciate everything I'm having now
Family, My best girlfriends and YOU.

xoxo

Surprise!

2011-11-21T19:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday and today were a surprise day for me. I can't believe that what is happened on me.

What my feeling towards the thing that happened was just like laugh it off. I don't know whether should be happy or what. But I felt it's quite funny.

I told my besties and they are having the same thought as me.

Everything that past, it past.

Future is waiting for us!

Stupid life!

2011-11-18T22:03:00.002+08:00

I don't like my working life recently!

I found out that the people in working life are so complicated!

Gossip about each other behind the people, hate the people who do less work, want to bother all the things happened around them, etc.

But I want to know that, is that necessary for you to bother so much? I think all of these are none of your business. Can't you just mind your own business instead of others?

My mood was totally spoilt yesterday! I really can't understand human well.

Seniority is that so important for you all? People who do not want to respect you, then is your problem. You are the one should think about it but not discussed behind!

But luckily, I got my real friends accompany me along the way! And they are much more simple and lovely than the working adults!

Pity blog!

2011-10-01T19:48:00.003+08:00

Waooo...it's been ages since I updated my blog! Pity my bloggie.

Well, I'm just too lazy to write recently. But let's make the story short and sweet. :)

I had worked for 3 months and the life there still not bad. But recently my boss gave me some work to handle already. So scare to make mistake.

My convocation is on next Saturday! So nervous and excited!

And I spent alot after I worked. In my mind set now is I can buy anything that I can't afford when studied. LOL.... That's the cause of no money now! :(

That day was AirAsia free seat period and I've booked two places to travel next year - Miri & Cambodia! Can't wait for them! <3

I think that's all first since now is short and sweet. :P

xoxo

Update

2011-08-06T21:03:00.002+08:00

I have mixture of moods recently.

Got happy, down, feel sick and tired.

These two days, my stomach feel uneasy. Feel like over acidic. So sour in my stomach and of course, it's suffering. Long time don't have this feel already but it came back yesterday! I hate it.

Then working life still the same and maybe going for the next outstation next week.

Hmmm...I'm too tired want to continue this post because of the stomach make me feel want to vomit!

I'll stop here! xoxo

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2011-08-01T21:18:00.002+08:00

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2011-07-26T21:10:00.001+08:00

I'm really get hurt this time. Very hurt! It's bleeding non-stop. Being cheated by someone I trusted! I've no energy anymore!

2011-07-20T20:54:00.001+08:00

The 300th post is dedicate to my 2nd outstation - Johor Bharu.

This trip is much more fun than the previous one because this is different group of colleagues I went with and the place is much more better!

This time I went to refinery and learn ISO Audit.

The people there were nice and friendly. The foods there were so so but at least no need to eat spicy foods. The hotel is the best part of this trip because it is a FIVE STAR hotel. It was so enjoyable and comfortable.

I even went to gym with my colleague after work because both of us think that we gained weight and need to do exercise.

This trip overall is fun, enjoy and most noisest but I like it.

I love outstation but n

2011-07-08T18:40:00.001+08:00

I just went back from outstation to Kedah yesterday.

This is my first outstation and I recieved this outstation last minute.

Well, before I was going to the estate, I was worried.

But after I went, I felt it is not that scary and worse than my senior told me.

I still can adapt the life there. It's sometimes better than I work in SB because during outstation, we can ended our work earlier and rest earlier.

Besides, I no need to pay 1 cent during the four days of my outstation because all is paid by company. It's sound great right?

But sometimes, it is quite boring also because what they talked about, I can't understood at all in the meantime.

And and and....I hate hotel. I heard my colleague said sometimes only will have 1 girl and few boys to outstation and that time, I have to sleep alone in the hotel. My godness, I scare the most to stay alone in the hotel but now and maybe I have to! But hopefully, my boss will not that cruel and treat me so badly!

Nothing to talk about this outstation because I just be an observer and learn things.

Working Life!

2011-07-02T19:38:00.003+08:00

After worked for 17days, let me briefly talked about my working life.

First day of work, I still used to it because I'd worked there during my internship.

So far, I have nothing to do except study and learn to do testings which I'd learnt during internship too.

Today went into boss's office and he asked seniors to bring me for outstation next 2 weeks. It's quite fun and interesting I guessed but it will be very tired too.

But suddenly, one of my colleague called me and asked me to go for outstation next Monday for 5 days. It's too suddenly but I quite looking forward to it. I want some new experience which I can't get it inside my office.

Okay for all these, one of the most thing I can't tahan is one of my colleague...hmmm..how to say? He is too kind? Too helpful? Or too nagging? I just can't stand with him anymore. Last time, I hope can join his section but now, I hope I can join another section which I prefer more and that is my interest. So now, I just pray everyday hope that my boss will arrange me to the section I wish to join. If I join that section, I'll run away from his nagging but somehow, I still need to listen for his nag sometimes I guess.

Well, this is what I can said about my working life. So far, so good because everyone tell me the same thing which is...."You good lo, study can get salary....."....So I'm using this mind to let myself love this job. =)

Updates!

2011-06-07T13:08:00.002+08:00

It's been long time after I've abandon this blog. So let's have a quick update.

I'm officially say goodbye to university's life and going to say hello to working's life soon.

Actually, I'm not very happy to this changes in my life. I have no excitement of graduation, no excitement of working.

After work, there will be alot of commitments and this is my responsibility. I scare I can't handle it well but I will try my best.

For the moment, I just stay at house and rest enough before my new life is starting.

Another thing that harras me is I need to drive alone in KL during my working life. Oh my god! I'm scare of it but I have to overcome this fear because I am force to! So friends, wish me all the best!

After almost 5 months of your leave, I still always think about you and and your everything! I'm just too miss you, mum.

God, my wish for the rest of my life is hope that my family members will stay healthy and happy forever!

母亲节！

2011-05-07T20:22:00.002+08:00

又是一年一度的母亲节了！

今年的我，必须在没妈妈的情况下渡过母亲节！

以往的我们，一定会带妈妈出去吃饭庆祝或者是在家煮饭给她吃，然后送她礼物。

不过，今年不一样了。

所有所有的东西都不一样了，唯一没变的是，我对妈妈的思念。

我想，在妈妈离开以后，我再也不会庆祝母亲节了，因为没妈妈的存在，没什么好值得我庆祝的。

姐姐今天告诉我同样的东西。。。。今年没有妈妈和我们一起庆祝母亲节了！原来姐姐都和我一样，一直一直都在想念着您！

妈，我会记得每一个我们一起渡过的节日，然后在心里面陪您庆祝。

妈，您在新的国度有幸福吗，开心吗？

妈，希望您能听到我要对您说的。。。。

母亲节快乐！！我永远爱您，直到我们再一次的相遇！

一百天

2011-04-26T20:59:00.003+08:00

今天是第一百天了。。。转眼间，您已经离开我那么就了！

可是我还是会无时无刻的想起您。。。

那天去外公的公德，听表姐说不能每天那么地想您，不然您会不舍得，会很辛苦的。。。

可是，真的是这样吗？我反而觉得，如果您知道我已经不想您了，妈，您应该更伤心吧？

不过不要紧，我是不可能不想您的。。。

妈，我正在考大考了。第一次没有您的支持。。。。不过，我是不会让您失望的！

我会好好的加油，考到好成绩，做您成功的女儿！

缘分。。。

2011-04-10T15:32:00.001+08:00

缘分来的时候，挡也挡不住。

缘分结束的时候，留也留不住！

消失的声音

2011-03-27T17:05:00.002+08:00

今天，所有的亲朋戚友都聚集在我的家。所有的谈话声，笑声，都很熟悉，可是呢，就少了一个人的声音。从此以后，我再也不可能听到妈妈的声音了。以后也不会有那把熟悉的声音出现了。

2011-03-27T14:12:00.002+08:00

心痛的感觉真的很不好受。。。痛得我喘不过气来。。。

虽然这样的想法很自私，不过我还真的希望世界末日能快点来！

让这个世界末日把我带走，离开这一切凡尘。。。

没有烦恼，没有心痛，没有任何的感觉。。。

2011-03-26T15:22:00.001+08:00

觉得已经没有必要再坚持下去了！累了。。。倦了！

2011-03-24T14:46:00.003+08:00

Finally, I spoke out and I guessed everything is coming to the end.

And from the lesson, I understood that everything cannot be force eventhough you've try your best to convince the other people to accept something. But as I know one important thing is, at least you've try! No try you don't even know the result. Once you'd tried, you can know it without any doubt. That's so true and I really learnt alot from these.

Due to some problems arise in my life recently, I just felt very stress and stress. And I felt that no one is understand about my feeling and no one is truly know what happen to me because even myself also not so sure about this. Maybe just I'm thinking too much until my mood fell into the bottom.

I think is time for me to wake up and stop thinking too much. Do whatever I can do now before I'll leave this world! Be happy and everything just "see open" abit.

But no matter what, mommy, you're always in my heart forever and even until the day I die! I really love you so much, mommy! And I miss you alot.

2011-03-20T13:34:00.002+08:00

一眨眼已经是两个月了！我的生活也没什么变化。

一样的烦闷，无聊，提不起劲做任何的事情。

心情也慢慢的平复下来了。。。

这个星期五会比较忙。。。

忙着筹备course night，跳舞。。。

我真的很累。。。过了这个，又要忙着温习功课应付考试。

快喘不过气了。。。真想抛开一切，享受人生。

星期四那天，旧公司叫我去应征工作！

希望能得到那份工，因为我满喜欢那边的环境，那边的人。。。

人生啊。。。真的很忙碌！

散场的拥抱

2011-03-15T15:12:00.002+08:00

从你的眼角
慢慢的明瞭
我能做的很少
原来你藏着伤
但不想和我聊
你选的电影
像某种预告
不坦白的主角
最后流着眼泪
坚持独自走掉

散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢
散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道你留着和他所有合照
明明面前是答案却撕掉不要

呵护的祈祷温柔的讨好
爱能让人渺小苦笑冒充微笑
浪漫得不肯逃

散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢
散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道我们和你们不能比较
但我的爱多强悍出乎你预料

散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢
散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道
太美的回忆相副手铐
越是挣脱越缠绕
我比你明瞭

The End!

2011-03-15T10:50:00.002+08:00

Everything is come to the end after sometimes.

As I said, everything is predestined. Nothing can be force,

include friends, relationships and life.

Maybe this will be the best solution either.

I just hope everyone is happy after this.

And I'm so sorry to those who I hurted before.

Forgive or not, just depend on you because I will not force anyone anymore!

2011-03-12T09:53:00.002+08:00

这几个礼拜都心情很低落，对什么事情都没兴趣。

也没好好的睡觉了。每次半夜也会醒过来。

莫名其妙的心情不好，也不知道有什么原因。

或许，我怀疑自己将要患忧郁症了！哈哈哈！

昨天，我崩溃了！竟然在学校一个人哭泣！

我觉得我需要眼泪来平复我的心情。

我有时觉得活着也没什么意义了，做什么也不对，也要被别人批评！

感觉到我做人非常的失败，非常的孤独.

有时，我宁愿自己一个人做任何事情也比较愉快！

不需要去顾虑任何人的感受和意见, 要怎样就怎样，不受拘束！

昨天，也是我爆发的一天！在妈妈去世以后，第一次哭的最厉害的一天！

或许，一切也注定好的！没什么好强求的！冷静或许对我来说，是先在做的事。

第49天

2011-03-06T15:10:00.002+08:00

今天是您离开的第49天。。。

原来你才离开我们49天而已，不过感觉上您已经离开我们很久了。

对您的思念一点也没减少，反而越来越多。。。

妈，您好吗？您现在在哪儿呢？

有想念我们吗？您有在看着我们吗？

如果您有什么需要的话，记得来找我，告诉我，知道吗？

妈，您知道吗，我有一个朋友时常都有帮您祈祷的，好让您早日去极乐世界，您有听到吗？

她是个很好的女孩来的。。。我也非常的重视她这位朋友！

最近，我都不是很开心因为一些事情，不过我也慢慢的学会看开了！这让我知道谁值得让我对他/她付出，我不会再笨笨的做一些没有人会珍惜的事情了！

我宁愿把心思放在亲人，爱我的人，珍惜我的人身上了！

妈，我永远爱您！

2011-03-04T12:19:00.003+08:00

人是善变的。。。这个我非常地赞同。

无可否认我也是其中的一个，不过我非常地不喜欢一个人明明已经答应了一件已成定局的事，可是因为某人告诉一些不是问题的东西，就改变主意。

我拜托啦。。。以后你和他讨论好之后再做决定吧！还有，我不再会像个乞丐那样求你了！

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今天我也收到一个我认定她是我最要好的朋友给我的一封信。我非常地感动，眼泪也渐渐的留了出来。谢谢你那么的关心我。我也很对不起你哦因为每天和你斗嘴。可是我只是闹着玩的。希望你不要放在心上哦，因为我依然会永远爱你，你永远会是我非常好的朋友！谢谢你!

Tears!

2011-02-19T21:16:00.002+08:00

It's one month and two days you had leave me!

Mommy, I still will remember the time when you leave me.

You know what mom, yesterday auntie asked about you again in front of me and I can't control my tears anymore. Tears were queueing two lines on my cheek. I think no matter how long, whenever have people asking about you, I'll still will cry. I feel want to cry like no one care, no one know. Every single moment I had been with you still being so real in my mind. I feel want to hug you, talk with you, complain to you about my uni's life and every single thingy happened around me to you.

I need to pretend like I'm ok in front people. I don't like all these! When I think of you, I need to control my tears hardly not to let them fall down when in front of people. It's a tough job for me but honestly speaking, I think I had done a good job after all. I just failed twice being so weak!

I know everything and everyone still need to move on and so do I. I'm trying to do so. But when I saw some people have mommy to take care and love them, I felt jealousy and upset. I know I was very lucky already because at least I had mommy by my side for over 22years. While some other people don't even meet their mommy once they were born or when they were still babies. I know I am lucky! But I am greedy indeed. What I want is my lovely parents and siblings can be with me forever! Sometimes I rather think I want to be the first to die because like this I will not have any sad feelings. I know got such thoughts is very selfish and crazy but I am just a coward!

末班车

2011-02-19T21:09:00.002+08:00

空着手犹如你来的时候
紧皱的额头终於再没有苦痛
走得太累了眼皮难免会沉重
你没错是应该回家坐坐

鸣笛声悄悄地刺进耳朵
这一次挥手恐怕再没机会问候
最后一遍了换你躲进我双肘
像靠在曾摇动我的天空

别说话泪水你别带走
镜子里的我已留下你轮廓上的笑容
别回眸末班车要开了
你不过先走
深爱是让不舍离开的人好好走

鸣笛声悄悄地刺进耳朵
这一次挥手恐怕再没机会问候
最后一遍了换你躲进我双肘
像靠在曾摇动我的天空

别说话泪水你别带走
镜子里的我已留下你轮廓上的笑容
别回眸末班车要开了
你不过先走
深爱是让不舍离开的人好好走

别牵挂约好我们再见
散步的午后要像从前
再挽着手叙旧

别逗留末班车要开了
路到了尽头回头是爲
永留心口的人
好好走

抉择

2011-02-12T18:15:00.002+08:00

人生就是一场抉择！做每一件事情都必须做决定。

这几天，我周围的朋友都在困扰着到底要不要继续升造。

那当然我也是其中的一个。不过我想我已经做好了决定。

这个决定，也是我考虑很久了。种种的因素让我有这个决定。

不知道这是对的抉择吗，不过应该是目前我想要的吧。

我想我周围的朋友还有很多都还不能做决定，不过，我相信他们都会好好的考虑自己想要的是什么，然后做个明智的选择。

妈，对不起哦如果我的决定不是您想要的。

不过我答应您，如果有机会，我一定会实现我的梦想的！

没有您的除夕夜

2011-02-02T21:59:00.002+08:00

今天是除夕夜，也是第一次吃团圆饭没有您在。

妈，您过的好吗？您有回来家陪我们吗？

非常的想念您呢。

第一年您不再与我们吃团圆饭，第一年您不会再给我们红包，第一年没有初二会娘家，第一年没有您对我们唠叨要我们收拾家里。

我真的不习惯这一切，不过所有的人都叫我要看开。

可是他们怎能了解我的心情呢？

您与我生活了22年，怎能说看开就能呢？

妈，虽然我在朋友的面前都笑笑，可是我内心可不是这样。

我不想他们为我担心，也不想爸与哥哥姐姐担心我。

我就是那么的脆弱，我不是人前的那么坚强的。

我宁愿懦弱。。。

妈啊。。。您在另一个国度会冷吗？吃的饱吗？会怕吗？

您不要怕呀。。。我会永远的支持您的。

妈，您不能忘记我，知道吗？我下一世也要做您的女儿，做您宝贝女儿，好好孝顺您，照顾您。

妈，新年快乐！我爱您！

Outing

2011-01-31T11:59:00.002+08:00

I went to temple yesterday with sis and bro because boyfie's mom asked me to go there to do something.

Then I called her and she said alot of things that made me feel touch. Thanks auntie.

Yesterday I went for gathering with old-school-mates.

This is the first time I met them after mom leave.

I was so relieved after had a chat with them.

They really are my happy stars.

I love them so much....Thanks for by my side whenever I need you guys!

We going to have a reunion dinner tomorrow!Yippie....

。梦。

2011-01-29T11:17:00.002+08:00

妈，前几天我在KL家睡觉的时候，我梦见您来参加我的毕业典礼呢！

那是多么的真实，您知道吗？

我抱着您，眼泪就不自觉地掉了下来。

梦中的我，是开心的哭了。

抱着您的时候，我能感觉到您的体温，是温暖的。

您知道吗？我是多么的希望我的梦可以成真，您可以真的来参加我的毕业典礼。

我的心很痛。。。

当我醒过来后，才知道这只是个梦！

妈，不管怎样，我都希望您能来参加我的毕业典礼。

Goodbye's the saddest word

2011-01-28T16:31:00.001+08:00

Mama you gave life to me
Turned a baby into a lady
And mama all you had to offer
Was a promise of a lifetime of love
Now I know there is no other love
like a mother’s
Love for her child
I know
love so complete
someday must leave
Must say goodbye

Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

Mama you gave love to me
Turned a young one into a woman
Mama all I ever needed
Was a guarantee of you loving me
’Cause I know there is no other love like a mother’s
Love for her child
And it hurts so
That something so strong
Someday’ll be gone
Must say goodbye

Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye
But the love you give will always live

You’ll always be there every time I fall
You want to be the greatest love of me
You take my weakness and you make me strong
And I will always love you till forever comes
ah...........
And when you need me
I’ll be there for you always
I’ll be there your

Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

2011-01-27T21:21:00.002+08:00

妈，我生病了！可是，这次我再也不能亲口和您撒娇了。

生病的时候最想念您了。

今天是您回魂的日子，所以我们全部都回家。

我也开始放假了。所以啊妈，我会有一个礼拜多可以在家陪您了。

妈，我想要您可以照顾生病的我。

我真的很想念以前和您的一切一切。。。。

Today!

2011-01-24T14:58:00.004+08:00

Mama, today I started to back to uni's life again.

Once reached uni, I doesn't feel like want to talk. Doesn't want to social.

Just don't have the mood.

My mind keep thinking of you.

Last week at this time, you just leave me. Leave me without saying anything to me. And I was on my way back to see you. I was so regret that I didn't accompany you. When I saw your body, your heart didn't beat anymore. Your eyes didn't open again. All the machines that connected to your body already been moved. You didn't response to me when I was calling you. I just keep thinking of that scene. I can still felt your body is warmed. But the reality is you already gone.

You know what, I feel stress as well because I missed 3 weeks' lectures and I scared that I can't cope with it. I scared I will disappoint you.

I'm scare of everything without you by my side.

I suddenly feel that I don't like KL's life.

I want to back hometown.

At least at there, I still can refresh back everything you did in the house and also company dad.

Mama, I really miss you alot.

I don't know when can I stand up again but I really need your support.

Mama, can you appear in front of me? Can you let me feel that you are beside me always whenever and wherever I am?

Frankly speaking, I hate Monday! I hate Monday's noon! I hate 17th.

头柒

2011-01-23T17:18:00.002+08:00

妈，今天是您离开的第7天了。。。

在这7天里，都没有您的声音，您的气息，您的味道。。。

妈，您有回来家里看我们吗？

为什么您没有出现在我的梦中呢？

您真的不要我了吗？

我对您说过的。。。

我愿意陪在您的身边照顾您的。。。

您回来吧，妈！

回来让我实行我对您的承诺吧，好不好？

您知道吗？我今天想起那天在医院看您的最后一面。。。

我觉得他们很残忍。。。为什么那样的对您呢？

为什么不尊敬您呢？

看了让我觉得心碎。。。

妈，对不起。。。我没好好的保护您！

三朝

2011-01-22T12:48:00.002+08:00

刚刚从墓园回来，因为今天是妈妈三朝。

说真的，家里没有了妈妈是很不自在的。

大哥昨天才说少了妈妈，家里变得很无聊。

我心都酸了。。。看着妈妈以前的照片。。。不禁想起以前的点点滴滴。

以前，每天都是一家人坐着吃饭的。可是，现在您却不在了。不再和我们坐一起，有说有笑的吃饭了。

我看着您的食物是摆放在您的灵牌前，而不是和我们一起吃了，就不禁的心痛了！

妈妈真的很可怜。。。还没有儿女享福，就这样走了！

妈。。。我的这个部落格以后将会写关于我对您的思念！我知道您一定会看到的。

我对您的思念不会减少的。。。我也不会忘记您！我会永远想念您，永远把您留在我的心中！

妈，以后我有什么事，我一定会告诉您的。一定会像以前一样和您分享我的一切的！永远都不会改变！我对您的爱。。。会是永远的！

第五天

2011-01-21T10:32:00.002+08:00

今天是您离开我的第五天。。。

早上一起身，不见您的踪影了。

您平常躺的椅子也不再看到您了。。。

没有您的声音，您的笑声。。。真的很不习惯

再也不会有您对我唠叨，对我关心的声音了。

真的很怀念您的声音！

妈。。。您还好吗？

一个人会怕，会孤单吗？

我知道您一定会寂寞的。。。因为您是那么的喜欢热闹，喜欢我们陪在您的身边。

每当我放完假要回去读书，您一定会告诉我您很不舍得，会很寂寞，因为没人很您谈天了。

每一次您这样说，我就会很心酸，因为我是多么的想每天留在您身边呢。

我真的很想能陪在您的身边，照顾您，侍候您，陪您聊天。。。

妈，我想要见您！

一切都不一样了

2011-01-20T20:51:00.002+08:00

我最爱的妈妈已经离开我第4天了。

昨天晚上是我最后一次见到我的妈妈真人。。。最后一次了！

她彻底的离开了我。

我非常的不舍得妈妈！为什么老天爷要那么快把我妈妈带走？

她还很年轻。。。心地善良，待人随和，她也没做坏事。。。可是为什么就让她就这样的离开我们呢？

她还有很多东西还没做的。她要参加我的毕业典礼，哥哥的婚礼，姐姐带男朋友回家。。。

妈。。。为什么您不要坚强一点战胜这一关呢？我们还很需要您的。。。

如今。。。我的生活点滴再也没有您的出现了！我不甘心！您说您最疼我的。。。可是为什么您就那么忍心的丢下我呢？

我还不会照顾我自己的。。。

我情愿生病的人是我。。。受苦的也是我。。。我什么都甘愿，只要妈妈您回来！

您还没让我好好照顾您，报答您的养育之恩。您也还没有享福的！

妈。。。您知道吗？我有很多很多的东西要和您讲的。

我很恨当初无知的我。。。当您还在的时候，我却跟您赌气一个月不和您讲话！可是现在呢。。。我要讲，您也不能回答我了！我真的很恨我自己！恨我伤害您的心！我也很后悔没有好好的珍惜您！妈。。。。。。我很想念您！您可以回家看看我吗？可以出现在我的梦中让我与您谈天吗？妈。。。。。。您的宝贝女儿非常的爱您，想您！！

2010-12-30T00:06:00.002+08:00

I was so sad today! My dear God, do YOU hear me? I pray so hard to hope YOU will hear me. Please...I really need YOUR help. Please listen to my pray...make my pray come true. I'm not greedy to ask for many wishes. Just one and only ONE. Please...help me! I need YOU, GOD! T.T

2010-12-25T18:12:00.001+08:00

I pray, I wish, I hope... God...Please hear my pray,wish and hope. I need your help. Please...

Eat Pray Love

2010-12-24T21:02:00.003+08:00

I've just watched "Eat Pray Love" by Juliet Roberts. I'm quite outdated huh? But who care?

I fell in love with this movie because it brought me lesson about life. How wish am I can like Liz in the movie which can travel around the world and gain the different experiences. Understand the place's culture, mix well with them and be good friends with them.

In the Rome, I love the thought of the Italians - "Be joyful by doing nothing"(I don't know how to speak in Italian). And the Italian language is so fantastic. The rhythm is so amazing! If I'm giving a chance to learn foreign language, I might choose Italian. Eat at Italy is a best choice because there is alots of nice food such as Spagetti, Pizza and so on.

For pray, India is the best place to go. Meditation is the best medicine for us to figure out what we want. Clear your mind, without any thinking. Silence doesn't seems to be a bad thing but in other way, it can let you get something unexpected.

Bali which is the love's heaven. It is such a harmonic and peaceful place. How best to have an aventure there. In this movie, they said everyone who has visit Bali must have an aventure. It is so true because in such a lovely place, everyone will becoming adorable and sweet.

I wish I could go for Eat Pray Love once in my lifetime because it is a great experience to have. I wish I could!

World Vision

2010-12-21T13:41:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night I found a best friend who has the same idea with me to do some volunteer's work. So we decided to search for information on this.

And finally I found the World Vision website and they have the Sponsor Child's activity. So my friend and I had made decision to sponsor a child. We know that we can't really afford to do so by giving RM50 each month, so we found 3 more people to share with us by decrease our burden. So we only need to pay RM10 each month and we can help a child who needs us!

I feel so happy cause at last I did this. I wish to do this since years ago but didn't really take action. But this time my friend and I decided to take action on this matter.

Although we haven't get any reply from World Vision, but I hope they will find a child for us very soon so that we can help the child. I'm so excited to know who is the cute and adorable's child.

Besides, my friend and I also registered for volunteer's work at World Vision. Both of us were so excited yesterday when we discussed. But the volunteer's work have to wait the reply from them if they have any activities need volunteers. So we just can wait.

Hmmm...if possible, I would like to sponsor more and more children because they really need helps from us.

Housework!

2010-12-15T20:31:00.002+08:00

Today's work done!

I've cleaned the basin, sweep and mop floor, simply cleaned my room's desk and cleaned up the disgusting spider net!

Why am I so hardworking today?

This is because yesterday I saw a cockroach which I hate the most! This motivated me to have a small clean-up today.

I found out housewive are so great because they willing to clean the whole house everyday without complains. Clean the house is so tiring and headache.

But I think I can't be the great housewife though since I love to depend on my mood to do cleaning.

After do some housework, sweat alot but I love this feeling. It's like having an exercise. It is a good exercise to help me keep diet!=)

Holiday Starts!

2010-12-12T19:21:00.002+08:00

Finally my 3 weeks of sufferness already past! I hate the feeling during that period. No outing, just sit down and study study. It's really sucks!

Now, I can shower myself with alots of stuffs that I can't do during exam period. I can sleep for 12 hours without set alarm, I can online for whole day, I can go out gather and chit-chat with beloved friends and most importantly, can spend my precious 3 weeks time with family at home!

I haven't make my holiday plan but I think I need to have recharge myself by sleep first before have energy to continue my holiday plan.

萧亚轩 - 错的人

2010-11-08T20:37:00.002+08:00

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真的真正的可笑

爱得太真太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身

可能在爱里面这样算笨
可能永远没有所谓永恒 ohhh
但是我不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但我相信有点可能

没关系

2010-11-02T19:49:00.002+08:00

你离开的时候没有一句
没有一句对不起

对不起是我太执迷
没有一句话说清

说清楚离开的原因
也许他可靠

他实际

他不一样
他能够给你安全感

不只梦想
谁还在乎一起傻傻说过的那些话
没关系

我们分了没关系
这不是你的问题

是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系

这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一枪

我没关系
没关系没关系
没有一句话说清

说清楚你离开的原因
爱情里面总有一个比较傻
怪就怪我放不下 NO~~
痛苦给我

幸福留给你和他
没关系

没关系

这不只是限于爱情，我觉得任何事与物，只要不要太强求，什么都没关系，应该会活得比较开心吧？或许我应该慢慢的学习说-没关系！

2010-10-31T19:56:00.002+08:00

3 weeks of study week is starting since Friday.

But I let myself be lazy and relax, my study week start only after today which means tomorrow, yes! It's tomorrow I'll going to start my study week.

These two days I was busying complete my half-way-drama and play The Sims. I loved this type of life very much. No need to work, no need to study. No worries, no stress. Be myself, no need to meet anyone and be the fake me. Will I have such life when I'm still alive?

Sometimes I'm pessimistic. Sometimes I'm weak. And sometimes I hate. I hate all the things around me. Hate myself being like this. Hate everyone who gave me alot of problems. Hate studies. Hate lecturers and hate many more.

I know we shouldn't hate anyone because they have their rights of doing something. So I'll just hate myself being such a coward, such a fake people.

I'm not tough at all! I was fulled of stress!

2010-10-24T11:31:00.002+08:00

真诚的对待一个人，得到的却是伤害！
为什么他们伤害了我，可是我还要对他们好呢？
或许是我笨？
别人都不珍惜我对他们的好，那我为什么还执着的付出呢？
唉。。。。
非常不喜欢这样的感觉！
他们只会在乎他的感受，难道就因为我人无所谓，所以我的感受就不须理会吗？
我真的放弃了！我已告诉自己。。。。我不会在为你而伤心了！

好人，坏人？

2010-10-04T13:12:00.002+08:00

我想了又想。。。终于做了决定。
因为一件事情的发生，让我看到了人类的可怕。
说谎，欺骗。。。他是善意的吗？
要是善意的谎言我也还能接受。不过。。。我想他是恶意的吧！
我已经学会了一句东西。。。
就是。。。好人没好报！
我到今天才觉悟了！
所以啊。。。我要学习做坏人！
至少，坏人被骂，被诬赖也不会伤心难过。
因为他们都有了心理准备被责怪！
我不会再讨厌他，生气他。因为他不值得和没这个分量在我心中出现！
朋友是一辈子的。。。这是我常常在想的。。
不过。。。究竟会有几个真的会那么做呢？
有几个真的能和我做一辈子的好朋友呢？
人啊。。。总是善变的!
这个我非常地明白！
所以。。。我也只能尽我的能力去挽留任何一段我觉得值得的友谊！
你相信对方不代表他也会相信你！往往他就是出卖你的人。
相信别人，倒不如相信自己吧！

2010-09-25T22:24:00.001+08:00

委曲求全的挽留，值得吗？

2010-09-22T13:14:00.001+08:00

Really not in the mood today!

Holiday End!

2010-09-17T20:54:00.002+08:00

My semester break is going to end in 2 more days!

I don't want to back to the stress and tired days. But what to do? I still need to go back.

Am going to meet my friends in uni and my baby dear. But very soon, I need to face the final exam.

This semester is a tough sem for me because all subjects are too hard. Since first day of the semester, I didn't concentrate in the lecture, always sleep at house. Didn't revise even though there will be test tomorrow. I was totally lazing around this semester.

I miss my home very much although I'll back every weekend. But just two days were not enough for me this greedy gal. I want to stay at home sweet home forever but I know it is impossible. People will grow up. So everything will change. But no matter how am I going to change, I still will love my family very much and forever.

Tired!

2010-09-15T17:32:00.002+08:00

My 2 weeks holiday already passed more than half just like this without do anything.

The first 5 days I went to Penang with coursemates. This can said is the first time I had trip with coursemates. But too bad, got some of friends can't make it though.

After back to hometown, I was falling sick and my few days just wasted with sickness. When sick, I was so lazy to do anything. Am so lazy to go out also. Assignments all have to postpond.

After recovered, I still lazing around. Fashion world, PPS, Tv and etc but just do not want to start assignments.

Until today, I just wanted to start 1 of my assignments. Although can copy and paste but I still do not know how to do. What a shame! I also don't know why this semester I felt like so lazy and have no strength when face with studies!

4 more days! Arggg!!!! 4 more days then I have to go back to uni and study again. I'm so tired with it! I must fully enjoy my home sweet home before back to uni! Yes! I have to! Assignments can't block me to enjoy!

Alive!

2010-08-29T16:39:00.002+08:00

Hello my little bloggie!!! I'm so sorry for abandon you for such a long time. So your owner me trying to make you alive again. =)

The semester is going to step into the 8th week and for the past 7 weeks, there had alots of things happened. Ups and downs, happy and sad, enjoyed and suffered.... All happened!

But, luckily all passed! And recently I felt quite funny with those people who same lab class with me. You kow who you are ya! They angry us because lose to us to grab the apparatus! Omg! It's really freaking funny and non-sense. And beginning of that day, they just like ignored us! But what I felt unhappy is the way they treated my roommate. I don't know is it I'm too sensitive or they really do like this. They actually were one group of best friends and will go anywhere together. But this semester, they treated her like not a best friend anymore and didn't invite her go along anywhere but asked the other gal who not really closed with them to go. This make my roommate felt sad. Why they so 'kiasu'? So scare of people to win them and treat their best friend like this. I so hate them! By the way, after next year May, I think I will not meet them anymore since they are such coward!

Well, I don't want to talk about them anymore and waiting for our group next trip to Penang! Sapoh roommate, don't worry. They don't made you as best friend, nevermind! I will make you to be mine! Let's enjoy our trip fully! Don't bother them although I know you will not!=)

Okay...I write till here first. Out of mind what to write! Bye!

The End

2010-07-03T17:37:00.004+08:00

Finally, my Industrial Training was coming to the end. This was the time I wished it to come faster but now, I was a bit upset because I had a great time with my colleagues this 2 months.

Although 2 months doesn't seems long but also not a short period. Our friendship is built! I very happy to know them in TQCC.

I would like to thank everyone who helped me alots in TQCC, taught me so many things that I couldn't learn in University. I also want to thank Nurul & Siti, my good friends in TQCC. They treat me very very nice. I'm very glad that I can knew them. Both of them are nice and sweet girls. Besides, I want to thank KLK's Group for giving me this chance to training here and had a great experience.

Today, everyone was asking me whether I will working at TQCC again after graduate? I also don't know how to answer them but hopefully, I also want to go back there because the place is near my house and the most important is, the people there are really nice and friendly. I'm not regret chosen this place as my training place.

Although you guys can't see my this post, but I just want to tell here I very happy to know you guys! Nice to meet you everyone in TQCC! This post is specially dedicated to you all. Hope you all are happy and take care. All the best people!

Friendship Forever!

2010-06-30T19:07:00.003+08:00

I am so lazy to update blog these few days because I'm very very tired!

So until now, I just want to update about my last weekend's activities.

Last Saturday, once I finished work, I straight took KTM back to Seremban and met my bunch of besties. We were going to Malacca for 2 days 1 night. Yeah! Finally we made it!

In overall, I love this trip very much. The were many reasons and one of it was finally our first trip is done since we knew each other many years ago. They brought alot of laughters, happiness and joys to my life especially the FOUR GILRS! I really love them alots because they will always by my side whenever I need them, I need someone to talk to. They are really a nice friend of mine. We shared happiness, sadness, secrets and etc. Four of us knew each other almost for 10 years already. It's unbelieveable. I believe we are BEST FRIENDS FOREVER, will us?

In the trip, we ate, we shopped, we camwhored, and we joked around. And we met someone new! You know who you are! Lolz.... I wish you both stay happily together!=)

Although the trip was so short of time and tired, but it's worth because we are even step more closer to each other. I do really enjoy this trip, so how you guys think?

I'll plan another trip for us to enjoy and share hapiness again! I really love to travel with best friends and my beloved!

xoxo
Ning Shing

Surprise!

2010-06-20T16:59:00.003+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to a bunch of my besties of secondary school - Mei Yen, Soon Chee, Felix Siow, Jason and the one who 'leave aeroplane' - Hwei Nee for the surprise celebration of my birthday!

Thank you my friends!! I really appreciate it alot. I can feel lotz of ♥ from you guys. I ♥ you all much much!!!

And I can't wait for next week's trip. I want to enjoy with you guys.

I really feel that I am a lucky girl which has a lotz of besties beside me. I thought once we separate from secondary school, then we might not contact anymore. But luckily, they are still there with me. No change of friendship. I love this kind of feelings. We must friendship forever till no end!

I ♥ you guys. Muackssssssssss

I really felt surprise just now. Thank you very much!

Happy 22nd Birthday!

2010-06-16T09:53:00.003+08:00

It's my birthday today!

Thank you for all my friends who has sent their wishes through messages and facebook. I am so happy. And thanks my colleague, Siti who has wished me just now.

I'm 22nd years old and I am getting older and older. I just can't believe that I've passed my 22 years of life.

Here I am going to thanks my parents for their pampered loves and cares. Thank you for everything you both had done for me. Thanks my siblings for take care of me and fetch me to everywhere I want and of course sent me to work everyday. Thank you so much.

Chinese festival, Duan Wu Jie and, my dad's chinese's birthday also fall on today. It's such a coincidence. Happy birthday to my dad and also Happy Duan Wu Jie to everyone out there.

My birthday wishes are:

Hope my parents and siblings stay healthy and happy always.

Hope my studies will go smooth until I'm graduate.

Hope my bf and besties will happy always.

I am so greedy, do I?*hehehe*

But what to do. All of them are the most important parts in my life. Of course I want them stay healthy and happily always.

Last but not least, Happy Birthday to myself!

Updates!

2010-06-15T16:06:00.002+08:00

Today was the first time I managed to online since 8.30a.m. at the office till office hour end. Nothing to do but just facebook-ing and check out people's pictures and blogs. I was so boring till the max.

But finally I found a thing to do and that is to update my so-dead-blog. It's been ages since last update. Okay...let's start to update my last week's happenings.

Some of my besties said to me that they were not coming back to PJ last week. But but but, I could met them in my house after back from work. Why? This is because my bf and them already planned to give me a surprise-early-birthday-celebration. I was so touched yet happy. This was the first year I had my birthday celebration with bunch of besties and bf together in my uni's life. I love them to the max!

But, unfortunately, they failed to give me the surprise they planned to at first. Nevermind, who cares? As long as all of you were here with me. *happy happy*

Then the night we went to One Utama for dinner and Tropicana for movie. The day was fulled with joys and laughters.

The next day my bf and I went to the Curve for our next celebration. Although in the meantime we argued but it's okay after we had our nice yummy dinner.*yum yum*. I really thanks my bf for what he done for me and sorry for my capricious, my bad attitude. I love you much!

And yesterday, my bf and I applied for leave to register our next semester course and of course, dating for the last day of the week.

I am so so happy to have bunch of besties around me and my bf beside me all the time when I need them no matter when I was on the up or the down of my life. Beside my family, all of you are the most important person in my life forever. Thanks my beloved friends and bf! Muacksssssssssssss

I got to go because it's almost reach my time to go back home. Bye!=P

Intern's Life

2010-05-19T18:36:00.002+08:00

So fast I going to end my 2nd week of intership. I think this week so far is quite okay compared to last week. This week I had learnt more and did more experiments which I didn't do it for last week. At least I no need to sit in the office and just do my readings. It's really boring. This week I was in the Palm Oil & Effluent's section. Basically those testing parameter I had learnt in lecture before but just in theory and not practical. So, from this intern, I'm able to apply the theory I learned in uni. The lab assistant there were quite friendly compared to the Latex's section. They are willing to teach me step by step. This make me more understood how this experiment is conducted and so I enable to do it myself independently. In this section, I can learn alots. I still have most probably 4 weeks in this section and I hope I can gain more knowledge which I cannot get it from lecture. So, good luck to myself and also my lovely friends at MPOB. You guys know who you are. All the best ya. =)

3 days of work!

2010-05-12T20:32:00.003+08:00

After 3 days, my Industrial Training just have ONE word to describe - BORING!

Until now, I haven't start any experiment yet but I just like an office girl to sit inside aircond room and read articles. It was superb boring until I fell asleep and didn't realize my boss was standing beside. But luckily, he didn't notice that I was sleeping. ^^

Those people there majority is Chinese and Indian and minority of course, is Malays. I guessed there is a lot of competition to work there as a permanent staff because in this company, there is total 8 chemists and 7 of them are chinese. I also met my big boss and QA manager. Both of them quite nice but my colleagues seems not very like them. Maybe they have their own reasons since they worked with both of them for quite a long period.

As heard from one of my colleague, if work at there for permanent, there is a mininum 5 months of bonus and alots of leave provided. It's attractive! I wish to go back to this company after I graduate but my boss said he does not want any girls more and want sent me to Kalimantan. Swt....

I stopped my update here and overall, I don't like to work without doing anything instead of just sitting and read! Please give me something to do and I need to pass up my report!!!!!

Suffer of one another one.

2010-05-08T22:56:00.003+08:00

Finally my 2nd year 2nd semester is overed!

And now, my 2nd year special semester is coming.

I'm so so so stress and scare about my industrial training.

I am just alone over the new environment and there is no one I can trust like my closest friends. I have no one can rely on and everything need to depend on myself. I have no more besties beside me whenever I need them. Whatever I will do at there also need to be alone.

This is my really first time to work alone in an adult's society. Although said I had an experience to work 1 month as a computer teacher before, but, my besty-Wye Lyng was accompany me there almost all the time. That's why I felt so comfortable and won't so stress like now.

I think everyone also need to grow up and so do I. I chatted with my friend just now and he told me nothing to be scare. You need to fall down and criticize by people, then you just will grow up. I understand but I just can't accept it right now.

Suddenly feel so helpless and depressed! Am I so useless? Am I a dependent people? I think I need to do a well preparation on my mentality before start my training next Monday.

I really hope everything will be fine there and hope my training will be smooth with joys.

最熟悉的陌生人

2010-03-20T16:23:00.005+08:00

爱情就像舞会

教会你最初舞步的

未必能陪你走到散场

爱情就像听音乐

遇到好听的

就会陶醉其中

单曲重播

一秒都不想停下来

而如今只能随机播放

等待下一首能让我心动的旋律

等待

记得我曾对他说

等你是幸福的事

可是有时候

无结局的等待让人心碎

这世界上最累的事

莫过于眼睁睁看自己的心碎了

还得自己动手把它粘回原形

我不等了

因为我学会了放手

放手。。你很伤心地对我说

我不爱你了

可是。。。

你不知道

让你飞翔

是我爱你的方式

我的眼泪

落在你看不到的角落

于是

我们的距离

就像一起看日落的影子

拉长了。。。。

曾经尝试逃出你设下的阴影

走了很久才发现

原来我还走不出这黑暗的迷宫

偶尔触碰到伤口

偶尔也会小声哭泣

我选择逃避

用尽美丽的童话来掩盖丑恶的谎言

我催眠自己

因为我受不起伤害

我活在过去

因为现实生活中

你已离我而去

你送我的礼物

我都舍不得扔

你给我的回忆

我都藏在心里

偶尔拿出来重温

很无聊的

你的照片存了又删除

删了又存回去

很自私的

每一天都要你在我的脑海里跑一趟

也很愚蠢的

每一天都在你看不到的角落关心你

对你，其实我还在意

我们可以重来吗？

可以回到过去吗？

可是我很清楚

我们的生命线再不会遇到交叉点了

两条不碰面的平行线

只能隔着远方看你

终究

我们成了彼此的路人甲

分手后不可做朋友

因为彼此伤害过

不可以做敌人

因为彼此深爱过

所以我们就成为了最熟悉的陌生人

想念你的我

希望你是幸福的

p/s: Adapted from a video in facebook!

爱的四个阶段

2010-03-20T14:38:00.003+08:00

有位爱情方面的心理学家曾写道：

一个成熟称得上真爱的恋情

必须经历4个阶段

‘共存（Codependent)，反依赖(Counterindependent)，独立(Independent)，

共生(Interdependent)’

阶段之间转换的时间因人而异

第一个阶段：共存

这是热恋时期

情人希望无论何时何地都能粘在一起

第二个阶段：反依赖

等到情感渐渐稳定后

至少会有一方想要更多时间来做自己想做的事

这时，另一方会感到被冷落，开始莫名的伤感和孤单

第三个阶段：独立

这是第二个阶段的延续

要求更多独立自主的时间

也是双方进一步适应和磨合的过程

第四个阶段：共生

这时新的相处之道已经形成

你的他/她已经成为你最亲爱的人

你们在一起相互扶持

一起开创属于你们的人生

你们在一起不会相互牵绊

而会相互鼓励，相互成长

但是，大多数的人都过不了第二与第三阶段

而选择分手的方式

这时非常可惜的

很多事情只要好好的沟通就会没事

不要赌气，不要耍性子

要相互信任，相互体谅

这样第二与第三阶段的时间就会缩短

和所爱的人相遇相恋是非常不容易的

所以无论如何都不要轻言放弃

两人于茫茫人海中相聚是因为有缘

彼此相知相恋是因为有心

真得好好珍惜这福分

莫轻谈分手

我们会逐渐变成我们所爱的人

你和他本来没有共同之处

性格也南辕北徹

可是一旦彼此爱上了

日久天长

你会惊讶的发现

他的眼睛有点像你的眼睛

他的微笑又有点像你的微笑

你们的步法有点相似

说话的语气也越来越像

原来我们会变成我们所爱的人

你原本喜欢脚踏实地的人

可是他很轻佻

但，你们爱上了

他竟会不知不觉地学着变老实

这个适应你的渐渐的改变

甚至连他自己都不曾有所察觉

这种改变，绝不是刻意的

两个人爱的越久，气质也愈相近

你曾经以为他不是你梦寐以求的类型

然而有一天你会惊讶的发现

他已变成你喜欢的类型

你不必再到处寻觅

他就是你要找的人

Life for past few weeks!

2010-03-13T23:35:00.004+08:00

Few weeks didn't update my blog already. So I decided to update it today to prove that it's still alive.

For the past few weeks, there were many things happened on my friends surrounded me and myself. Because of these, my mood doesn't seems good.

One of my friends told me that she got a guy chasing her but she refused to accept him. She has her reasons to reject the guy but my advise to her is think properly before make any decision that will affect her future.

Besides, I was still worrying about my internship. Although I got the company, but I still don't know where should I stay for the 8 weeks and how am I going to work? I know I should call the supervisor but I don't know what should I ask him. Dad was asking me to make a call as soon as possible and I think I have to call them by next week.

Another friends of mine had problem with her boyfriend. But I think the problem has solved and they will be happily till forever. What I happy for is she told me that she finally found out that she love her current boyfriend more than her dream guy.

Arguement always will end up with sadness,anger and etc. I don't know why people want to argue for stupid little thing. After one arguement, they need to apologise to each other. So what is the point? For improve relationship by a small arguement? Or they were boring with their life and wanted to make some rhythm of life?

What I hate the most is I got a selfish housemate+coursemate!!!! I don't know why got such people in the world. Everything is started by him but now he said that we are liar! I very angry when he said that because he is the one who said lies to us. What also want to be first, so "KIASU". WHat people have, he also wants. ALways just like to follow people silently, observe what people done. I still need to face him for 1 year. I don't know we still will be friend in future. But if he still behave like this, my answer will be definitely NO!

Final is coming very soon. But I still haven't make any preparation yet. My result will gone this semester? I hope NO! I know hope must be achieve by action. So let's start my revision next monday? LOlz....

CNY?

2010-02-16T20:37:00.002+08:00

I really do not have any CNY's feel this year. Everyday also tired due to sickness, sweat because of weather it's hot.
Because of these, I do no have mood to go out. Just sit in front of my pc and watching PPS.
Recently, I'm watching a korean drama. It's very nice. This drama is my mum recommand to me one. She kept said very nice. So I try to open and watch it. After watched, I'm addicted! 1 day watched 20 episodes. LOL...
Today is 3rd day of CNY. My half CNY is passed just by doing nothing at all.
There have 3 more tests waiting for me after this holiday. I haven't start revise yet. I'm too lazy to start it!!!!

2010-02-11T16:51:00.002+08:00

I'm HOME!
Everyone is headed back to their hometown for celebrate the coming soon CNY and so do I. But I can't really feel the CNY atmosphere. Why? All busy with their studies, work, money and etc?
For me, it was a bad day. I was falling sick. Stupid idiot virus, why you approach to me? It's too bad!
As usual, I have to clean up the house, wash all the curtains, mop the floor, sweep the dust and so on. But, I will wait for my sister and brothers to come back and work out with me.
In this coming CNY, there is someone missing and that is my grandpa. He died at 3rd day of CNY last year. He cannot join our CNY celebrating anymore. He had leave us for 1 year. I miss him very much.
After CNY, my nightmare will start! It is 8th week for the semester and it means already half semester was gone. Half semester without doing something. Everyday sleep at lecture, chit-chat with friends, or dreaming as well. I don't know what I had learn in this past half semester. So after CNY, I should start to revise??? Kidding! ^^ But somehow, I also need to start a little bit by little bit because all the tests are waiting for me. I hate this kind of life.
I think I should stop crapping here and start to help my mum to clean the house.
Take care my friends and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all of my readers and HAPPY VALENTINE too to all the lovely couples.